What Happens Now?

From the prompt: “What happens now…”

I’m in the flat, reading the opening word of the year
Just trying to find out what happens
I don’t want to know it all, just a bit
(Even “theoretically” would make a difference)
If only to get the fuck out of this between place

I have had the same thing in my mind for weeks
Like wolves, going over and over the same place
Like rain
The winter chubby with opportunity
Guilty for not doing something with it

I read now, to be out in the world
It’s a bit of noise over the others (the wolves – the wolves)
When I have a think about the other day
With your lovely family, the sun, the summer
I marinate in the memory – I don’t know what to do

I am going through a lot
I’m thinking of you – I think I should be able to see you
I’m thinking, come over and we can get together
Yes, we can have some dinner
It’s a good place to be – together

When I get your message, I think, “I love you so”
(I love you, so?)
It’s so weird to not be with you
(with only the wolves, over and over)
But I am a little better than the other day

I am done with this game
I will make a cup of tea, get a blanket
Go over all the things we CAN do
Get to know the new me
(and the wolves)

The nightingale is reading the chat of the town as we go to bed
Singing back about what happens when the sun comes in
In the living world we have decided is not our human one
It says the rain has come out, and the weather looks set
To be perfect for the winter

Can’t you find it? It’s in my room, in my mind, in your car
Get your musical instruments, it’s a message
I’m trying to find someone to help me
The water is trying to say things
(And the wolves – the wolves)

That I have time, and a lot more than just me
That the light of the moon’s dance is an awesome thing
That we will be fine, and will get a chance to see the others
What happens now is a new year in the wheel of time
There’s no good choice – choose what you have to

The wolves can help, can be good for this
If you get a chance to get to know them
What happens now is uncertain (that is, not decided – a choice)
Hope and pray for the best
It is a scary time for many of us

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With thanks to:
Zoë Wells ∙ Bella Doyle ∙ Amelia Rice ∙ Charles Brewer ∙ Alex Scott ∙ Michael Francis ∙ Julian Kashdan-Brown ∙ Ariane Hunter-Wade ∙ Katie James ∙ Julia Kashdan-Brown ∙ Lucinda Roberts ∙ Sarah Mann ∙ Adrienne Maginness ∙ @poetryof_loren ∙ Ø Macioti ∙ Dione Orrom ∙ Catherine Light ∙ Callum Churchill ∙ Juliet Morley ∙ Lesley McLean ∙ Amy Hodkin ∙ Helen Francis ∙ David Hunter-Wade ∙ Jessica Owens ∙ Joel Russel ∙ Sara Murray ∙ Zoë MacPherson ∙ Raffaela Martuccio ∙ Gayathri Kandiah